I don't know why I'm even writing this stuff down, since none percent of my watchers actually read my journal entries.
I guess I just feel the need to vent every once in a while.
My life is a confusing mess right now. I think I've taken on way too much to handle. Between school, my story ideas, my collab project with
and volunteering for Youth Journalism International, I can barely keep my head straight. That's not even factoring in the artist's and musician's blocks I've had for about four months each.
I've got so much stuff I want to do and so little time to do it and now my dad is getting on my ass about studying more. What he doesn't seem to realize is that I've got a lot of other stuff that I want to do. I can't spend every single goddamn day and night looking over a textbook. I want to LIVE, goddamnit!
I'm sorry if I come off as whiny and annoying but I'm just really bloody tired of all this mounting tension. I just want high school to be over so I can head off to college, and I want my brain to stop being lazy and come up with something besides new concepts.
The sooner that either one happens, the better. I know I need to calm down, but that's easier said than done. At this rate, I'm going to need mental help by June.
Or a hug. A hug works just as well.